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I guess life's not a plate of gold then.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
My fingers are itching to blog right now.I was reading Mast's Lj just now and one of her posts really hits me right in the frontal lobe.
"Before I go on with more important things, I just have this to say..if you wanna change yourself, do change for the right reason. Change for yourself not for the sake of others. If you think that by changing for others, you'll be happier. By all means, please do but you'll come to a point in your life that you'll regret doing it cause it's not what YOU want to do on your own account. Perhaps you've come to that stage as that someone whom you've change for is no longer part of your life or perhaps that someone had broke your heart. You know, that kind of thing.Enough said.Life is a mess on its own but its up to us to organise it. " -Mast
She's right you know.Right now,I am making things right for me,my family and my future life.I'd be graduating by next March.It's really fast because soon I'd already be starting school and the last attachment for next Sem would really mean that I would be graduating soon.I hope I've pulled my socks really high this time because there would be no more fooling around.This is for my future. I already prove to my parents I can work hard in school and twice as hard during my part-time jobs and I have to prove to them now AI am big enough to lead my own life sooner or later with the person I love.It is not easy proving to them because as far as they know,I am still their little girl in the eyes.I can just feel that they are afraid I wouldnt be abel to handle the REAL life.Oh please,as if taking care of dying people AND already DEAD people arent REAL enough.
Sheesh.
So that means Abg MSK must really2 be able to prove to the parents he would be able to support me,his mom and can be a responsible son-in-law and not be anak hantu.Hehe.
Sometime's I think Im really maturing.I see things way differently unlike last time.Im more patient when it comes to oh so important stuffs.Usually I would just jump into conclusions and not think before I say.But heck,I AM growing and if it's a bit too fast,it'd be really scary.I dont want to be a young 19 yr old girl but has an attitude of a cranky old granny.EEEk!
& did I mention about creating a family?Its not that I cant wait to get married or something,just that,this is what I really REALLY want in life.Im sorry if I speak to soon,cause my girlfriends would definitely disagree having a family when you're only 23 would be too soon.Enjoy life,make lots of friends bla bla bla jack!
But hey,I can still socialise.It's not like once Im married,I cant even have time for my friends?Puhlease lah eh.Haha.
I'm learning to make small little goals right now.A little self sacrifice wouldnt hurt right?
Right now my sole goal is: -
1. To make sure my attachment's are maintained to a certain level.I shall work hard for this last week and make Mr Cris a less-burdened man =)
2.Save as much money as poss so I can go to Phillipines.
3.Pay up my sky high hp bills.
4.Save more money which means = work more and save more.
So that's that and gosh,what a freaking long post this has been.
In life,be happy with what you have.no point fretting cause this IS life and you can be sure to mess up here and there.But hey,God's fair.You're still alive and you still have the opportunity to make things right.So you do it right and clear the mess up & once you're up with the right solution,it'd lessen one burden off your shoulders.So be happy,do the things you like cause you may never know when God's going to take your life away.
Oh ya,tomorrow's the first day of Ramadhan.Happy fasting to all my Muslim relatives =]
& a very very HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all the teachers who have been very patient with handling difficult students (like me for example).Hehe.
Have a happy Sunday y'all.
12:44 am
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