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A pocketful of sunshine.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
I finally told my mom about us.It was hard,but I tried and I cried when I told her about the disappointing fact that her daughter lost in the game of love.I cried.She told me not to.I guess things do happend and they happen for a reason.
An angel told me that before I start to love someone else,I should start learning to love myself.Yes,it's true.Before everyone else,I should learn to love myself.Make myself happy,because I can lose a thousand boyfriends,but if i lose myself,then I would be done for.
I'm working out things with myself.The plain old Shiffa.I should start praying like he said.I shall take care of my sisters,my parents,my friends and myself.Perhaps the dream has an objective.To embrace life before it is taken away.
Mom said dont let the same thing happen twice.What?Suffer from a broken heart?Mom,I am suffering and have been suffering from a broken heart twice.I never told you about Qhai didnt you?How I almost went bezerk soon after the breakup.Life goes on,i got over it.Simply by not thinking about it.
I learnt to let go.Let go of all the frustrations,unhappiness and let in the sun into my heart.I dont ever want to be broken.I broke myself,him and everyone I ever know.
Dear God,
Lead me a path where I shall be closer to you.Grant me happiness in life.I am afterall your humble servant in this world.
Amin.
9:45 pm
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